24 is a fairly young age to think about death, purpose in life and the process of living a purpose-filled life. Recently, I should say for the past few months, death has a way of whispering fear and apprehension into my heart. Fear of losing my physical appearance (washed out look), freedom to run and walk and do the things which I love, fear of not being able to see Wenfu again, to be a good wife, to be be blessed with kids. With the passing of beloved Mrs Ho, my life had sort of taken a mini re-orientation in terms of the meaning of life. I treasure my days more and every moment is so precious to me. People are no longer an irritation to me as God showed me how much he loves each one of us.

Stumbled upon a website dedicated to a most amazing woman I've seen or known so far. Linda. Im still in the process of reading her entries. She recorded the last few months, battling with lowering blood platelets and undergoing chemotherapy to treat her sudden diagnosis of leukemia (blood cancer). Before that she was leading a life like any one of us. A teacher at a kindergarten and a wife married to a wonderful husband for 4 years. One very amazing thing about her is that despite what she went through, she still managed to find the strength to praise God and persevered in prayer. She was still proned to sadness, fear of the unknown and the unbearable bouts of discomfort experienced during treatments, however, she continued to look up and pray " God help me to stay strong". Psalm 94:14 - ''Lord, when doubts fill my mind, when my heart is in turmoil, quiet me and give me renewed hope and cheer'' She is teaching me something I have never experienced before. It was right there yesterday in her words that God touched me again.

"Remember to savor today... even if it means taking a deep breath while you're outside... appreciate even the little things like fresh air."

"One thing that cancer has done is slow me down, and I mean that in a good sense. Before cancer, you could easily pick me out in the mall - I was the speed-walker, zipping along with a zillion things going through my head. Now, I move along at a much more leisurely pace - part of that has to do with the fact that my energy level isn't what it used to be, but a lot of it has to do with the fact that I like to soak it all in. I take deep breaths and observe what's going on around me. I notice a great deal more now than I did before cancer - the evidences of spring, how people carry themselves while walking down the street, how blue the sky is on a clear day, things like that. I appreciate life and each day I'm given in a whole new way as God makes Himself so evident when I stop to take notice. "

"May God give you eyes to see beauty only the heart can understand... God bless you this day and enjoy all the beauty He surrounds us with!"

- Love, Linda